I am so sick of it.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I SUCK at STUDY!!!
In this miserable little life, I struggle countless times, everyday. Doing the lifeless task that drives me crazy every time. I've never thought that one day, my life will ended up like this. Struggling over books and papers all over the place. Got my eyes glued on the dry thin paper without feeling. I am so PATHETIC. How do I get to solve this problem? By studying? I am so tired that I sometimes stop half way through. I am not that tough. I am not that kind of girl. I am tired of it already.
I am so sick of it.
I am so sick of it.
Close your eyes and stare into the dark.
My father’s advice when I couldn’t sleep as a little girl. He wouldn’t want me to do that now but I’ve set my mind to do the task regardless. I’m staring into that immeasurable blackness that stretches far beyond my closed eyelids. Though I lie still on the ground, I feel perched at the highest point I could possibly be; clutching at a star in the night sky with my leg dangling cold black nothingness. I take one last look at my finger wrapped around the light and let go. Down I go, falling and floating and falling again. I wait for the land of my life and dreams the best dream. Sleep tight.. Dreams of me my dear~
I smile when I hear the music that rhymes well....
I change everything that I know about me. The music, well, not the music. It’s the rhythm of my life. The way I live my life. My timetable, my study and the most important thing is me myself. People might ask one day, how is your teenage life? The answer will probably sounds like this:
‘I’m sorry. My teenage world was the darkest time in my life. Where I have to struggle the most, where I wasted my precious sleeping time to study, where I live my life pathetically and where I enjoy nothing but the elements stated in the periodic table.’
I’d never given much thought to how I would die. But dying in the place of someone I love seems like a good way to go. So, I can’t bring myself to regret the decision I’ve made to leave home. I’d miss them. I’d miss the heat, the warmness of their hands holding mine. But again, I think, this will be a good thing. I think. And so the lyrics goes... when the thorn bush turns white that’s when I’ll come home. I am going out to see what I can sow. And I don’t know where I’ll go, and I don’t know what I’ll see. This is me. -NUR SURAIYA IZZATY-
‘I’m sorry. My teenage world was the darkest time in my life. Where I have to struggle the most, where I wasted my precious sleeping time to study, where I live my life pathetically and where I enjoy nothing but the elements stated in the periodic table.’
I’d never given much thought to how I would die. But dying in the place of someone I love seems like a good way to go. So, I can’t bring myself to regret the decision I’ve made to leave home. I’d miss them. I’d miss the heat, the warmness of their hands holding mine. But again, I think, this will be a good thing. I think. And so the lyrics goes... when the thorn bush turns white that’s when I’ll come home. I am going out to see what I can sow. And I don’t know where I’ll go, and I don’t know what I’ll see. This is me. -NUR SURAIYA IZZATY-
Ode To Joy
In our life, there are always ups and downs... but no matter what, we still have to keep going on... No matter what people said, no matter what people think.. I have to keep my guards up... some people might say: ‘I beg you pardon’ after reading this statement.. but I don’t care... for what I know, my life is all about giving... when is the time for me to receive something?
I am born gifted nor talented.. even though I’m here, I’m certain that this is not the best choice... being here... stressing out myself to the maximum level... lacking of sleep time, getting scolded by the teacher for no reason... since when something has change within me? This is not me at all.. I don’t know, but I think, I’ve change for the better me...
People live their life differently... I hate wasting time... furthermore, I think I need more hours in a day... let’s say, 48 hours... I want to study, I want to play but I want to succeed... If I have a wish, I will definitely wish me as a better person inside out.. I don’t want to be next to good. I want to be the best. I know that it is impossible, but still, I have to try... and the best part is I have to admit that I am not the best... that’s how life usually works...
I am born gifted nor talented.. even though I’m here, I’m certain that this is not the best choice... being here... stressing out myself to the maximum level... lacking of sleep time, getting scolded by the teacher for no reason... since when something has change within me? This is not me at all.. I don’t know, but I think, I’ve change for the better me...
People live their life differently... I hate wasting time... furthermore, I think I need more hours in a day... let’s say, 48 hours... I want to study, I want to play but I want to succeed... If I have a wish, I will definitely wish me as a better person inside out.. I don’t want to be next to good. I want to be the best. I know that it is impossible, but still, I have to try... and the best part is I have to admit that I am not the best... that’s how life usually works...
Monday, March 28, 2011
To my Special Someone here.... ngee ^__^
LOL...~ what the hell la aku ni...
btw, i entered Teater Club... on the first meeting, i sang this song... it's meaningful.. n pretty convincing that it holds a deep meaning in my life... XD...
Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope your doing fine
And if you ever wonder,
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side
Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Well I try to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God I'm torn apart inside
I look up at the stars
Hoping your doing the same
Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say
Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Always stay
I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You're the one that I hold onto
'Cause my heart would stop without you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
I'll always stay
And I love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask I will stay, I will stay
I will stay
btw, i entered Teater Club... on the first meeting, i sang this song... it's meaningful.. n pretty convincing that it holds a deep meaning in my life... XD...
Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope your doing fine
And if you ever wonder,
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side
Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Well I try to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God I'm torn apart inside
I look up at the stars
Hoping your doing the same
Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say
Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Always stay
I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You're the one that I hold onto
'Cause my heart would stop without you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
I'll always stay
And I love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask I will stay, I will stay
I will stay
Why early civilization develop?
Civilization in word means the process by which a society develops its own culture and institutions. Civilization also comes from a Greek word, civitas that means city. Early civilization in the world such as the Mesopotamia, Ancient Egypt and Hwang Ho developed at the river valley as the location of their early settlement. This is because of the fertility of the soil at the environment of the valley is very suitable for them to perform their agriculture activities. Besides, the selection of the valley is due to the existence of water supply, food, transportation and communication. This factor explains to us why almost all of the civilization formed at the river valley.
The existence of permanent settlement is one of the prime characteristic of the emergence of the earlier civilization. By living in a permanent residential, the society lives a systematic live. The chosen area is very important to maintain the continuity of the food. The result of the human innovation later produce advancement in agriculture such as food storage, animal breeding and the usage of new technology such as irrigation technology. The development also increases the production and lead to excessive production. This excessive production of food can cover up the increasing of the total number of the resident of the civilization.
The increasing of total number of the resident of the civilization later lead to organizational life which include social, political and economical aspect. The organizational life helps to arrange the society’s way to ascertain their stability and prosperity. In the earlier period of civilization, the social organization consist of the simplest phase which is the family. The increasing of the total number of the resident of the civilization and the variety of economical activities brought the civilization towards to a more complex society division process. The social system of the earlier civilization usually in the form of a pyramid. The first layer is the noble group who lead the government lead by the king. Next is the prominent group who lead the religious activities apart from the king. There are also some individual who are very respected in societies such as the family leader the leader of the group, followed by the normal residents. This social system ended with the slave group.
To bridle the bigger society, the government system were formed to perform a systematic management . The existence of the government system later produced the law system which guided the society to keep the peacefulness and the prosperity of a civilization.
When a society from the civilization starts the agriculture activity, they yield more than enough food. The excessive food production lead them to job specialization. The increasing of the human productivity cause the job specialization to be more important. This situation also directly leads to prosperity and towards political stability which also brought the civilization towards the increasing and the development of the economy. Products were produced by the expertise of some group. The products were later changed or replaced or also known as the barter system. This system is the starter of the earlier trading activities. The barter system also lead toward the change of knowledge, technology and culture between a society and another society. The dynamic of the economical activities is very important not only to the growing and the development of a civilization but also to its relationship with another civilization.
Religion and belief played important roles in the development of the civilization. This is because both of it relates with the recognition towards the leader, division of the society classes, development of the knowledge, arts and the construction in the process of the development of the earlier civilization. The emergence process of the civilization started when the human try to adjust their life with the environment. In certain society, the environment such as the tree, rock, the sun and the sea are believed to have the spirit and needed to be respected. It is also believed that by doing so, the society can keep their peacefulness and prosperity. Human at the earlier stage of the civilization believe that there’s mysterious spirit that control the environment. This believe is also known as the animism. By evolution, this evolution turns to religion where the religion of this civilization is known as the polytheism which means the believe of more than one God.
Last but not least, the invention of the writing system and the language are the part of the development of the earlier civilization and we can see the results until today. The oldest language includes the Greece and the Sanskrit or the ancient language of India while the earliest form of writing is the hieroglyph, cuneiform and ideogram. Language and the writing system are very important in spreading the knowledge and the relationship between a society and another. The production of the writing system is very important in managing activities such as recording, law and religious writing. Language and writing are the best instrument to deliver, develop and to note down human’s idea.
All of the civilization’s characteristics stated above are related to each other. This process develop faster in the city. That’s why, the emergence of the earlier cities played important roles in the development process of the civilization. A city also plays the role of the centre of the government, economical activities, religious and ritual, knowledge development, and the centre for the citizen to meet up. Generally, there are a lot of factor causing the development of the civilization.
The existence of permanent settlement is one of the prime characteristic of the emergence of the earlier civilization. By living in a permanent residential, the society lives a systematic live. The chosen area is very important to maintain the continuity of the food. The result of the human innovation later produce advancement in agriculture such as food storage, animal breeding and the usage of new technology such as irrigation technology. The development also increases the production and lead to excessive production. This excessive production of food can cover up the increasing of the total number of the resident of the civilization.
The increasing of total number of the resident of the civilization later lead to organizational life which include social, political and economical aspect. The organizational life helps to arrange the society’s way to ascertain their stability and prosperity. In the earlier period of civilization, the social organization consist of the simplest phase which is the family. The increasing of the total number of the resident of the civilization and the variety of economical activities brought the civilization towards to a more complex society division process. The social system of the earlier civilization usually in the form of a pyramid. The first layer is the noble group who lead the government lead by the king. Next is the prominent group who lead the religious activities apart from the king. There are also some individual who are very respected in societies such as the family leader the leader of the group, followed by the normal residents. This social system ended with the slave group.
To bridle the bigger society, the government system were formed to perform a systematic management . The existence of the government system later produced the law system which guided the society to keep the peacefulness and the prosperity of a civilization.
When a society from the civilization starts the agriculture activity, they yield more than enough food. The excessive food production lead them to job specialization. The increasing of the human productivity cause the job specialization to be more important. This situation also directly leads to prosperity and towards political stability which also brought the civilization towards the increasing and the development of the economy. Products were produced by the expertise of some group. The products were later changed or replaced or also known as the barter system. This system is the starter of the earlier trading activities. The barter system also lead toward the change of knowledge, technology and culture between a society and another society. The dynamic of the economical activities is very important not only to the growing and the development of a civilization but also to its relationship with another civilization.
Religion and belief played important roles in the development of the civilization. This is because both of it relates with the recognition towards the leader, division of the society classes, development of the knowledge, arts and the construction in the process of the development of the earlier civilization. The emergence process of the civilization started when the human try to adjust their life with the environment. In certain society, the environment such as the tree, rock, the sun and the sea are believed to have the spirit and needed to be respected. It is also believed that by doing so, the society can keep their peacefulness and prosperity. Human at the earlier stage of the civilization believe that there’s mysterious spirit that control the environment. This believe is also known as the animism. By evolution, this evolution turns to religion where the religion of this civilization is known as the polytheism which means the believe of more than one God.
Last but not least, the invention of the writing system and the language are the part of the development of the earlier civilization and we can see the results until today. The oldest language includes the Greece and the Sanskrit or the ancient language of India while the earliest form of writing is the hieroglyph, cuneiform and ideogram. Language and the writing system are very important in spreading the knowledge and the relationship between a society and another. The production of the writing system is very important in managing activities such as recording, law and religious writing. Language and writing are the best instrument to deliver, develop and to note down human’s idea.
All of the civilization’s characteristics stated above are related to each other. This process develop faster in the city. That’s why, the emergence of the earlier cities played important roles in the development process of the civilization. A city also plays the role of the centre of the government, economical activities, religious and ritual, knowledge development, and the centre for the citizen to meet up. Generally, there are a lot of factor causing the development of the civilization.
My Kind of Sixteen...
If u expected to read some kind of romance part of my life, u're advise to leave this page and do wudever else u should do...
my life now = hardest part of it...
being here with nothing in my mind... it sucks... i'm tired of it... lots of geniuses here and i'm just a little part of it... freaking!!! shut the hell up!!! i hate studying but then i have to study... as the older people said... for the greater good of your life... the hampehness!!!! kepenatan... kebosanan... kemengantukan...
wud else should i type... herm... let;s start again... my friends.. <3 Eva Vannessa, <3 Timothy Ho, <3 Amirul Fitri.... the people that still keeps me here... i love you guys... thank you so much for all the support and help... we will always be together.... through thick or thin...
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