Thursday, July 17, 2014


We give
Then go back for more
NO doubts,
NO holding back,
NO giving in.
The court, the catwalk,
The stadium to the street.
Inclusion over ego,
United by passion,

New Semester (September 2014)

I am seeing myself as a good student, not sleeping in the class and not taking caffeine so frequently because it’s not good! Trying so hard to pass all my minitests and at the same time I should start my healthy lifestyle (which I neglected during my first year).

I saw myself thin and curvy but that’s the point. I only saw myself but I can’t feel the change. Why? Because I cheated a lot. I went from I’m on diet to I had enough of diet (after losing 4 kgs) and I need some cheat days that blow my diet into ashes. Next month, finding myself gaining back that 4kgs I lost. I am so bad and I hate myself so much. Being thin is my ultimate goal since I finished high school. Come on, don’t tell me no one wants to look as hot as fuck during their high school reunion after 10 years. Hello!

Therefore, I’m setting new goals for myself and my new rewards for myself should be in terms of clothing. That’s right! Why reward yourself with food when you lose weight. Instead, buy new clothing items let’s say I’ll go shopping once a month because, I have a busy life and time constraint, definitely a barrier.

How much weight I want to ditch? Currently weighing 67 or 68kgs on different scale and I really want the taste of thigh gap and all. My little sister is 41kgs and people can’t tell we’re sisters. *cry*. Okay just kidding. 49kgs sounds good to me. I’ll put live updates every 7 days with my weight.

Hello high school reunion, let’s do this!
(p/s: losing 19kgs sounds impossible but when others can, why can’t I do the same. Beat the impossibilities)
(17th July 2014)

Get Back

I am terrible at doing so many things at one time which basically means multi tasking. I am bad for not keeping up with this blog since God knows when. I am a lady now, 19 and healthy (or not due to overweight ish!). Just finished my first year as dental student and God knows how much I suffered the last 2 semesters.

Took 4 basic sciences subject and failed miserably at two of them named Biochemistry and Physiology. But at a brighter side of life, I managed to pass Anatomy and Oral Biology which are at the same level of intensified hardness if I could tell (confession of the survivor). So I had to re-seat for the 2 papers I failed in August 2014 haihhh my summer is ruined. By the time I’m posting this latest entry I wish to delete all my information and making this blog not private anymore so people can read and I wish to share tips and tricks towards healthier, non stressful life.

Basic tip #1.

All of us should stop complaining and start doing, and that’s definitely how I gather all my shits and sit down at the main library UKM Bangi and started studying Anatomy. The entire study weeks I pulled out every energy left inside of me to save my grades (without complaining ‘I can’t understand what the lecturer saying’ ‘I hate this subject’ ‘why I have to study everything I just want to be a dentist’). I did complained a lot before till I realised there’s no use of complaining if you can’t get the job done.
Therefore I hope, once again I can’t pulled up my sleeves and sit down and study these 2 papers so hard. Graduating in only 5 years, never more.

Friday, February 28, 2014

HUGE wakeup call.

It has been so long since my last post. Life is so different now, and yes, I'm a grown up too. Let's just be honest here. I'M FAT! 

Yes, and all this while, I think that I'm just being a normal girl with normal BMI but no. I'M FAT. So the story begin after a cafe visit. The pak cik cafe thinks I'm fat and it broke my little heart to the smallest little pieces. It was so sudden, very rude at certain point but I take it slowly. Maybe he is tight uknow. 

Nevertheless, I use to be fatter. 


p/s: I'm not going to the cafe anymore.